I'm in a complete art rut. Every time I draw, this instinct to improve takes over and I always try to do something better than before. But I am so stuck it kills me. I watch tons of speedpaints and tutorials, I look at progress breakdowns, etc. But when I try to do it myself, no dice. It would be great to have a teacher - but doesn't everyone feel that way? Having someone tell you what you're doing wrong is just... priceless. I don't mean a teacher-teacher, art school official, just someone better than me to personally say, "Hey, you're trying to do A and you aren't achieving it because of B. Try C." It doesn't need to be an in-depth lesson every Tuesday and Wednesday, just someone that can offer me advice, me specifically, not me generally. But that's too selfish, isn't it? I know it is, so I am just venting.
Most of the information out there - and I mean REALLY in depth information - is for photoshop. I use a bootleg Paint Tool SAI, but there is content missing from it. I'd love to get my hands on CS5 because I think it would solve some of my problems, since I wind up trying to mimic things I see in a photoshop tutorial on SAI with little success, but I don't torrent. So I go back to my SAI tools and spend hours swapping brushes, tinkering, painting, deleting. And I get so angry >.< Because I am completely stuck. And an artist I really respect and admire was like, "The best way I use to get out of a rut is to try to mimic something else I think is really good." And I have tried, but I get no where. I can't figure out the brush settings. And I feel like I'm just two steps away from figuring it out but every time I go to paint it's like I go backwards ten steps.
Practice, practice, practice. That is the key. But I am just not getting anywhere. I guess some of it is brushes, but I can't say it like it's a program's fault. Because the artist is missing something, clearly. I probably over-complicate, too. And then over-simplify when I try to correct the over-complication. And I wind up layering until its disgusting and you can't even tell what or why and there was just no point.
It's just I see some people do beautiful things in SAI so I know it can be done! But whenever I'm at the helm, it comes out so bad and - I am just whining, really. I am whining because there is something I am trying to do and I don't know how and it's driving me crazy and all of the answers I seek are wonderful but I am not able to learn from them and I am so frustrated that I want to cry.
I apologize for this rant. T____________T I try to think of that Thomas Edison quote about light bulbs and how he didn't fail, just learned 10,000 ways it won't work to keep myself positive.